hmm…
my biggest wish, hope, dream, need… whatever you want to call it.. just now is to be at my Masters feet.
Ah well, one day.
Hopes and dreams in my ownership….
- to bend to your will
- to serve you and please you.. and in pleasing you bring pleasure to me
- to please you in all ways, whatever they may be
- to wear your collar…….. and brand
- to know that if i fail to obey i will be punished
- to not be punished in anger
- to be held tight without leniency in my bondage
- for you to punish me if it brings you pleasure.. but for me to know that it is not because i have disobeyed before you do
- to be loved
- to have my need to submit understood
- to be reminded of my submission to you so i never forget
- to be made love to by you – or used – or taken by force as you desire
- to see your dominance of me in your eyes and to feel it when you look at me
- for you to expect that at times i will be frightened and may even defy you, but for you to help me comply with your wishes
- for you to be swift and strict and fair in your discipline
- for you to explore my limits both sexually, mentally, emotionally and spiritually – as well as your own
- to have the courage to follow you wherever that may lead
- to make you proud of me
- for you to cherish the control i surrender to you and remember i need your dominance as much as i need the care that you put behind it
- for you to push me to complete and total submission to you
- for you never to break the trust that i place in you
- for you to set rules and guidelines for me – and if I break one for you to punish me sufficiently to give me an incentive to not do so ever again
- to be forever yours
- for you to push me and my limits so as to mold me into what you desire
- for you to protect and guide me to be the best that I can
- to feel your tenderness as well as your strictness
- to be encouraged to grow in my role as your kajira
- to be taught how better to please you and love you
- to be allowed to be everything i can be
These are my hopes, however realistic or not they are.
As for my dreams, well I am not sure I understand them myself yet, at least the few I currently know. I find dreams pop unbidden into my mind, unjustified, unrealistic and sometimes, in one case at least, completely contrary to everything I thought I held as my guiding principles. I do not feel comfortable voicing publically that particular dream… unless my Master wishes me to when he knows it himself.
Anyway, I feel the shifts in me again, I felt this shift two weeks ago and I am puzzling still over what has altered this time – or what cords have been cut that tie me to the person I thought I was. I am feeling a little lost, unsure and shaky.
The ground has moved again.
Added footnote by Master Aeros Wraithe:
My kajira, dina, has undergone many changes. The first changes were difficult for her to deal with mentally and emotionally. My kajira struggled to keep her independence and individual freedoms intact. Yet with time, she found her true place in life and what she was within. The changes came easier but her fears and doubts do remain. I understand that as she is a very sensitive and emotional creature. But she has came far in the few months I have owned her exclusively. My pride for her as kajira, woman twinflame grows by the moment. I could not be any more proud to own such a precious and beautiful kajira.
This is very nice, romantic, mysterious and very fulfilling. For a woman to become a Kajira (if she can) is a dream come true. For the master, it is a big investment in a woman who wants to belong.
Congratulations
By: Alexis on October 20, 2009
at 5:49 pm
A huge investment for the Master..
and a grateful and loving kajira if he has picked the One.
By: kajiradreams on October 20, 2009
at 9:31 pm
Hi there, I hopped over to your site from mixx. It’s not blog post I would typically read, but I liked your spin on it. Thanx for creating something worth reading!
By: Darleen Born on May 16, 2011
at 10:41 am