Slave positions and past history

A discussion on fet was started by someone regarding slave positions a woman used to take as a child and without knowledge at that point of Gor. I commented on it here for fet users… for those not on fetlife, I thought I would post my answer here as the post brought up memories for me that I had forgotten

I used to take that position and others when young. Seeing it agin in a drawing brings back so many memories.

I often found great comfort kneeling or curling at my fathers or my mothers feet as a child and this has carried on into adulthood. I am most at peace now when curled on the floor at my Master’s feet. Growing up I felt most at ease sat on the floor in some position and even as adult I find myself on the floor in the company of certain men I have a lot of respect for, men I would call Men and not males. For a lot of years between late teens through to aged 30 I completely and passionately rejected the slave part of me and feeling empty, only to find myself whole once I discovered what I was rejecting and started embracing it.

As a child I would find myself assuming position 13 and even position 1 of the series you have linked to when I was completely alone and this became more significant when I hit puberty when aye, my body would tingle with need then.

As a child I prefered to be either in the open air up a tree or in a field, or cooped up in a confined space reading a book. As an adult now, I am more comfortable constrained in restraints. 

I recognise all this now as who I am, and aye as the kajira i am. It is me and I cannot alter that, just embrace it and go deeper into it. It is scary, it is confusing as hell at times, yet I have never felt more at home.

Thank you for asking such a question. You have stirred memories in me that I had long forgotten.

what are your thoughts on this? have you ever looked back on your habits as a child and seen looking back indications of who and what you are today? if you are slave, how many of your actions and traits as a child indicative of the slave you are now? If you are Master, then I am humbled you are reading my writings, but were you always the dominant Man you are today or did your path take a different twist before you found your home?