I am owned and not looking for a velcro collar.

Now that’s out of the way in big red italicized text

my Owner and my kinks

I am owned by a wonderful Man, AerosWraithe, whom I am blessed to call *my Master*. I identify as Gorean and as with all those who live the lifestyle, it is not a role, it is who I am. Once does not have to be into BDSM to be Gorean. However, I am also about as kinky as the wires in a telephone exchange box.

I am quite naive with some of the almost common fetishes within BDSM circles, yet as you will see from my kinks on fetlife, others I absolutely love such as anal sex, vaginal fisting, nipple clamps and pegs.

Yes, I am Gorean, get over it!

I am not one to stand on a soap box preaching about my beliefs, yet I will if I feel you are being obnoxious or flaming me purely on the basis that I identify as Gorean. I am not from disney Gor, I am from EARTH and I obey the laws of my land. It is who I am, it is the codes and values that I hold, it is my credo and I live it 24/7. I give a base level of respect to others and I will evaluate that and adjust it accordingly based on their personal actions.

I may be submissive, but that is to my Master **only**. Please do not expect me to be submissive to you, just because you call yourself a Master. You are not mine. You can expect a base level of respect from me and provided that your actions speak clearly, that respect will rise.

 History?

I had an experience of BDSM/Gor when I was 16/17 years old. For a few months I wore a training collar, yet that is what it was always going to be. I was naive, I was a child and a bad experience had me running to bury any and all submissive and kink tendencies within me. I did a bloody good job of it for 17 years or so as well.

For 17 years I lived a strictly vanilla life and it nearly killed me. I was deeply unhappy, frustrated and the ultimate bitch. I lived by a credo of *I submit to no man and no man will ever break me*…. it lasted 17 years and when I could not live that lie any longer I went searching for answers on the net. Within a few months I had met my Master and our story begins there.

my Master?

Master is my life, my world.. he is my rock in troubled waters and the reason my heart quickens. He is my twinsoul and I am blessed to have found him in this lifetime. I am truly blessed to be owned by him, to be loved by him and travel on this journey with him. I have a tendency to panic at unknowns, to worry over things I do not *know*. I dig my heels in and will not budge. There are many times since being with Master that I have been on that edge, needing to jump in order to move forward and being frozen in fear of doing so. Master has always guided me through those times, calming my fears, pushing me if needed and being ready to watch me fly or catch me when I fail…

There is no failure, just opportunities to learn and grow

No limits?

I know it is hard for most non-Gorean M/s out there to understand, but I have no limits. For Gorean kajirae, the last decision we make is who to submit to. When Master collared me, I gave up my right to choose or to make decisions. No limits doesn’t mean that there is none however, the limits are what my Master chooses to set. This goes not just for any kink play, but in all aspects of my life.

 Want to be friends?

Master expects me to have spirit. If you want to drop me a friend request on Fetlife please do so, if you want to drop me an email, even better! Please do not be surprised if Master emails you however if he has a question. He word is final and he will tolerate nothing less than full disclosure on my part.

 Oops… Have I offended you?

Currently my Master allows me to post on any threads I find interesting on Fetlife and here, He also allows me to start a thread if I wish. If you feel offended by anything I post, please take it up with him. He is my Master and he will punish me as he deems fit, if he deems fit.

Old about me section from November 2009

okay, so maybe you are wondering who the hell this crazy woman is who writes this blog..
Yeah, I am weird and crazy.
Any one of my friends will tell you that one – I have never seen normal!

Well, I protect my identity on here. Maybe in the future it will not be as necessary to, but for now it is and I ask you all to respect my privacy and the reasons for it. In return I will tell you what I can.

On-line stuff!

1. my Master uses the on-line name of Aeros Wraithe.
   He posts here occasionally and also has his own blog which I have linked on this site to an RSS feed if you look down the right hand side.
2. Yes, I do know his real name for those that are curious.
3. He has given me the slave name dina for on-line use. I like it actually, a dina is a fictional Gorean flower similar to a rose and yes, I have thorns.
4. Yes, he does know my real name for those who are curious.
5. No, he does not insist on calling me dina… he uses my real name *grins* and a whole raft of others as he sees fit.
6. We both know a great deal about each other off-line. We are not stupid or dense, but we are very much in love.
7. Go hunting through my posts and you will find one with his photo on if you are curious to see what he looks like. I just see a wonderful, caring, sexy, dominant, make-me-go-weak-at-the-knees Man. Then again, I love him… you will see what your personal history perceives.
8. The  email address you can contact us both on is dreamcatcher123 (at) hotmail (dot) com or you can find us on Fetlife also (click the link and you will land on Master’s page).
9. I am also on Fetlife, my profile there is kajiradreams.
10. The slavery contract between my Master and me can be found here

Off-line stuff!

I am a divorced mother of two young boys.
my Master and I are working slowly towards being together in real-time.
That ‘being together’ has already involved a separation and divorce, and currently involves an ocean, 7 hours time difference, being foreign nationals in each others countries….. you can figure out the rest of the complications and prejudices we ‘are’ and ‘will be’ having to face. But, God willing it will happen.

I am a whole raft of labels! Which one would you like to pin on me today?! lol
Hell, life is complicated and mine is like others in that regard. I tried to deny who I was for nearly 17 years. I tried to smother and kill any submissive instinct I had… It didn’t work!  What you see is what you get with me, I am a very stubbornly independent, fiery, bolshy woman – yeah, a BITCH with a capital B if you don’t mind… But my Master knows different;  HIM – and only HIM – gets to see the other sides of me that needs to submit, that craves to serve. He gets to see the mushy girly girl I would cringe at if anyone else saw. He knows how deep my submission to him runs and I would not feel comfortable anyone else knowing that, or the majority of the other things only he knows about my nature.

With my Master’s permission I will make you all one promise though. The day that I am finally free of the shackles that insist that I protect my identity on here, I will post a photograph so you can see that it is a real person who writes this blog, not some fictional ‘role players’ shit. Actually I think it would be quite liberating to do that.

***Update***
My picture can be found on Fetlife if you are really curious!

I apologise to those role players out there who are honest about who they are. I do read some role player blogs out there and find them to be interesting… but I have had experience of wannabes who play on-line and pretend to be something they are not. I am who I am and I make no apology for being honest in that I write from my heart what is my truth.  I am not a play-slut who pretends and I have no time for those who lie either by word, act or omission.

Anyhoo!

That’s me!
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